♥ a letter for my future husband ♥

dear my future husband,,

I really don't know what's wrong with me tonight, not just tonight, but also for a few past days,,hmm, but I still want to tell you about this. I feel like want to tell you something that I was hoping for a very long time. It just my hope, for 'someone' who will be my future husband. yes, it is true that I don't know who will it be, but I believe that you still outside there. :) I just pray everyday, that one day I will meet with you and we'll be the best for each other. InsyaAllah if Allah wills it. I am now starting a new chapter of my life. Everyday, is my new chapter and I will face the day by filling it with good things that I can do to search "barakah Allah". I'll forget every bad things about my past, try to change my bad attitude, and I'll try my best to be a better person starting from now because it's not fair for me to have a good guy like you if I'm still like this without any improvement, and for sure it will be very unfair for you to have a girl like me if I stick with my past behaviour right? :'') If I want a good husband, I must be a good girl too. yeah. I can do it. InsyaAllah. I must put my love for Allah first before you, because HE's the one who give me the present = love for you. You know what? If there's a will, we will meet. I don't know when. When the right time has come, whatever happen, if we have been fate together, nothing can stop it. I believe that. I believe with Allah promise. A good guy is for a good girl, and a good girl is for a good guy. :) But, if other things happen, that means Allah want to show us something. Everything  that happen must have 'hikmah' right? :) Right now I'm still 19, but next year I'll be 20. At this age, I didn't expect anything to happen. I also don't want to be a too little late for that. I will make sure that my future husband is a good guy, who prays 5 times a day and never missed it, kind, responsible, not a smoker ( I hate smoker), have a good akhlaq, have an islamic background, who really respect my parents and also the one who can be my Imam to myself and our family and also willing to share everything with me, no secret! :) If you're worried about your past, it's ok. I also have a bad past. For me, nobody is perfect, but we can try and change to be a more better muslim. No need to worry about it. I don't care about your past, but I really care about the present (right now!) and also future. If I want you to be like that, I also MUST BE like that, or otherwise I'm sure that I'll not find you, NO! I don't want to be like that. :"(  I know, maybe people will say that I just too choosy because have set the rules for you to be. I don't care what people say. What I want is just for    our (you & me) future goodness. I don't want my life to be a waste. Couple for a very long time, but in the end, doesn't get married. I don't want to waste my time for a such ridiculous thing ever. My true love is just for you (my future husband) not for a guy with a title 'boyfriend'. So,,, well, hello my future husband! I'll wait for you and promise to be with you until Jannah! :'') We'll meet soon! InsyaAllah! If the right time have come, please PROPOSE me! heeeee ;) and be a responsible man who can lead me to the right path and heaven. We'll have a good life as husband and wife in searching ''Allah blessed''. AMIN! heee~ 

sincerely,,,,

your future wife to be,,

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